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GO/No-Go

Dawn. It's the 39th day of Increment 58.

This morning I had an early morning meeting and was scrambling to get the kids' stuff ready before I had to run out the door. As Chris came out to the kitchen he grabbed little Zara and walked out the back door. Of course I was curious.

When I got to the door I realized he was showing her the pretty pinks and oranges of the morning sunrise painting the clouds. He handed her off to me and scurried in to get the baby ready. In the meantime Zara was excitedly pointing at the clouds and exclaimed the most simple and beautiful phrase that made my heart melt, "Mom!! The clouds are so beautiful! You match them!"

Oh my gosh. These are the moments people. 

Do you see the moon up there?
It's Monday. It's Mission Control Monday! In true Mission Control style I thought I would give you my current (personal) Go/No-Go list, in no particular order:


GO: Cloudy days with mild temperatures and a playground within walking distance.

No-Go: Baby drool is gettin' fierce over here, we're at the point of soaking multiple outfits a day!

GO: Meetings with Don Pettit. 

No-Go: The dreaded "your transmitter has failed" message from Dexcom, and the shipment still in processing.

GO: Seeing your kids be the happiest when they are interacting with each other <3.

No-Go: That weird smell in the frig that I can't track down.

GO: The ever-expanding Type 1 Diabetes online community.

No-Go: Anniversaries of astronauts lost this week in history.

GO: Saturday shifts in mission control - it means exploration hasn't perished.

No-Go: Government shutdowns, and in general, politics. Ugh.

GO: Empathy. It goes a long way.

No-Go: Transitioning to "mom" instead of "mommy" :-(

GO: A not-quite-three-year-old with an impressive vocabulary.

No-Go: Type 1 Diabetes. All day. Everyday.

GO: Insurance, even with the new-year-deductibles.

GO: A job with real-life rocket science.

GO: A tiny corner of the internet to share all of my rambly thoughts with you.


Hope your Monday is not a case of the "Mondays"!!

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